To each its own...

I guess the other night i was super wasted and i just broke down. I think its because i was missing my family and at the same time my sister was trippin' and wouldn't give me my phone. Anyway, i say stupid shit of course when i get drunk but i've never acted like that when i've had drinks. This is the first time I acted like...out of control. I said some things to Mike which i don't even remember saying and to some other guy but he's a bitch and he of course was making fun of me and eh.... that's him but yeah i think it would be good to just delete numbers cause i don't like to bother folks when i'm like that. I don't love Mike like that lol. I'm glad he's moved on and i'm glad we're still cool. I guess. SHIT. I still wanna be his best man if he ends up getting married lol. That would be fun. Ah but yeah i have a lot of growing up to do. I admit that. I enjoy not growing up so fast though. Its like i want to do things so i can have a few memories.... I've gotten worst when i've been drunk and did some worst shit -_- but i don't plan on drinking for a while. Hangovers kill me a little lol but yeah i still love my life. I guess 

but i'm not lying...

Its funny to me when people swear they are the nicest person EVER. Always trying to correct people on what they say or based their opinions if a person is doing something wrong. Like no, your opinion is irrelevant. I love when people just be happy or just do THEM. If they don't then that's a sad life. I never judge anyone on what they do or what they look like because to be honest i'm not that good-looking or my life is far away from perfect. No one has the right to call anyone ugly. People just don't learn these days till they get there feelings hurt. I HATE SOCIETY AND EVERYONE IN IT.

for every one who comes to me with their opinion

V

life is lived.

people will grow one day and realize what they've said in the past is utter bullshit, i've said stuff to people that i don't regret in the future cause' i don't say shit out of my fucking ass. you can't say you don't give a fuck about what a persons doing and go off and make a video about it cause' the only dumb one is the person who doesn't SUPPOSEDLY give a fuck. yes i care right now to make a simple point. i don't need to go off and make videos so people can see my dirty face and think that that proves my fucking point. word is bond. i hate niggas who think they're always right about everything. that shit is stupid and i hate how niggas go off with a "anybody fuck with my love they got it coming" like no nigga, mind yo own business cause' if somebody is talking down on ya LOVE then obviously the bitch had it coming. oh and another thing i hate, if a bitch takes a picture of her self with her BOOBS or her thighs fully exposed and you get mad cause' MAD NIGGAS comment on her pictures then there's something wrong with yo bitch wanting attention. GET YO BITCH NIGGA GET YO BITCH!

Its Not Real.

People don't just fall in LOVE in weeks or even two months..that shit never works out. I've seen bitches love niggas right after a short amount of time and that isn't even possible. Relationships like that never last. Then bitches wanna end their life when things don't work out. Like bitch... do you have any idea what you got yourself into? this isn't fucking Cinderella. Sure, long distance relationships make you grow. But it also makes you grow into a person who you thought would never be and as the time goes by... you realize that you get use to that person. It takes time. Time for you to grow within the other person. I fell in love once. Long distance relationship. Me and him were together for a few months... I fell in love. Deep love. I do kinda miss him but he grew out of it and so did I. The only way if you knew if you were in love with a certain type of person is if you can't forget that person. You remember everything about that person and if you KNOW everything about that person. Even having that "first-time" meet planned out.. still. After all the bullshit. Love isn't something you feel right away. IT TAKES FUCKING TIME. Stupid idiots...

I want new.

I won't be graduating, i'm done with school. I've chose to be stupid in school...don't preach to me. I know my fucking mistakes. Today is pretty skeptic. I might get suspended, but I could care less. These principles have chose to fuck up my last year here on purpose. I don't say nothing though....I just don't think its fair. I miss my grandmother... Her birthday is coming up & she's not even here... (I got 6 minutes) anyways, ama miss a few people from here (not really)... you notice a lot on your last year... in High School. I've enjoyed them so i'm not complaining. A lot of people are gunna give me shit but its done. No one has the right to judge me...or to tell me what to do. Its time for what i want....

'1

This is the 'New Me'

I've lost a lot lately...surprised? nope. Not exactly.

Every person I've encountered being close to me..disappear one way or another

Jeniffer "Lokita"

Kimberly "Kimbo"

Tania "Tweedy"

Edgar "Smiley"

there all...GONE. I can't trust anybody anymore. Why should I? it isn't fair. Intoxicated the other day. I messed up my wrist....bad. That side of me missed me. Lets go back to the past. Old me will be the New Me.

Oh wait, if you're listening..

I wish I had a computer ((I'll post every damn day))...Anyways I was going out with this one dood.....all he wanted sex. I broke his heart then he started hating me? Shit, i'm bad at writing poetry when i'm being forced to. This isn't fair. I'm very sad inside, come try to describe me in 5 words. I'm always sad though...I'm tired. I grew up when i was 14. Ask me why. I don't ever want to deal with hard situations. I want to leave. Just leave. Can I move? My image might scare people. I'm ((hard))core. *chuckles* I'm crazy......I don't know what to say now. Friday there's a lot planned. It involves a street "gang" ((stupid securities))...I'm hungry now. Sorry blog. I've disturbed you once again.....

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